I have not been returning comments much lately, but I think it will be easier when BEDA ends – for me, at least. I have been having some trouble functioning again emotionally, physically and mentally. It is a really difficult process to explain, and it has been quite difficult for me to explain it in a way that others can comprehend. I have been playing Wild Ones so I can get my anger out via a game, not really chatting with other players and simply enjoying the “peace” and quit whilst playing said game – all the while merely minding my own business.

I just wish I could forget about so much crap I don’t WANT to remember that my mind just keeps in my head. Slowly I have went from believing that “everything happens for a reason” to believing that “some things happen for a reason”, this being simply because I don’t know what POSITIVE reason could possibly cause said memories and whatnot to continuously stay in my head because of something I cannot control. And you know what? I honestly don’t think there’s anything wrong with that.

I have really changed a lot this year, and more so in the past few years. I think each year is different and that I always mature a little more, but this is the year that a lot of things have come out in the open. I can’t say I like it, but I can’t say I don’t like it. I neither know nor care how I feel about it.

I’m sick of Virgin Mobile USA thinking they’re being helpful but not, Avon not helping me when I need help and not understanding that I really need my emails – SOMETHING – to be replied to, and I’m sick of myself.

I just want to be happy. Why can’t I just be happy.

Take the title however the hell you want it, but don’t give me crap for using it and however which way you freaking perceive it.

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When I was in high school, one of my history teachers mentioned two theories to explain the course of events. One was the “Great Man” theory, the theory that states that humans take control. The other was the “Deterministic” theory, which states that everything happens for a reason and that world events create conditions that make world events inevitable.

I don’t remember which theory I argued for in my essays – I just found points for each one and picked the one with the most points. But this post is +1 for the Great Man theory.

I know exactly how you feel, sometimes things happen and you can’t understand why. Shit happens, eventually it gets better and you will be happy 🙂 Phone companies are next to useless.. Trust me, I’ve had my fair share of issues. I have no idea if you don’t want people to comment, but I’m not too worried about you returning it, I just want you to know that you’re not the only person that feels like this. Sometimes your blog is an amazing place to rant haha that’s about all I use mine for . Best of luck 🙂

I love saying “foff” – I don’t judge you at all for using it. :3

I haven’t been returning comments lately either. I’ve just been far too busy and it’s not at the top of my priority list.

I guess I believe everything happens for a reason, but I really really hate that phrase/saying. A lot. I just accept when things happen, even though it’s unfair. It happened, alright, but the reason it happened is definitely not good. I hate when people bring up “everything happens for a reason” about a sensitive situation.